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cheeky · 09-23-2009, 11:53 PM

it all started back when i was in my teen years when i was raped and abused by an ex-boyfriend i was skinny back then and turned to food as a quick fix. i went from 115 at age 15 to 180bls by the time i was 20 and started eating to get fat so he would leave me alone. finally he did and i tryed to lose weight and did alot of different diets and failed at them my last option then was to try to starve myself what a big mistake i was getting bigger instead of smaller and didn't understand what was happening. i went to my dr and he told me that my body was in starvation mode and is storing fat i went from 180lbs to 250lbs by the time i was 26 then i got pregnant and had a good pregnancy till near the end when my body swelled out but i went back to my weight of 250lbs. four years later i became pregnant again and it was a good pregnancy till about 2 weeks before my due date and they said i had the begining stages of preeclamsia and had to induce me the labor was great and had no pain at all. when the nurse checked me and said they think the baby was breach then prepared me for an emergancy c sections. but he wasn't breach at all and if the ob had of ordered and ultra sound she would of seen that and i would of been able to have a natural birth but that didn't happen. when i was able to come home is when my nightmare started. i wasn't in the dor for 5 min and i started hemoraging out of my insicion and was rushed back to the or and opened up again. my son was born on the 11th of nov 2000 and by dec 13 2000 i had been opened up 7-8 times from post op infections and ending up the last time they left me wide open to heal from the bottom up and that was challenging but if she had of done the ultra sound i wouldn't of had to go through this. i had VON nurses in and out of my house off and on for year and went from 250 lbs to 300lbs from not being able to do anything then i became pragnant again and that pragnancy was the worst for my but i wouldn't change it for the world by the time i was 4 and a half months along i went into pre term labor and was taken to kingston hospital by air ambulance were i sayed for 3 weeks then got transfered to london were i was for a month then got transfered closer to home were i staed for about 2 more months and was on complete bed rest and on april 16 2002 i went in and had another c section but my worries were far from over when my daughter was born she had alot of health problems and was in hospital for a month and i went from 300lbs to almost 350lbs but last about 15 lbs in fluid and stayed at 332 lbs for 6 years. i since started to walk more and work 3 hours a day outside and trying really hard to eat right and am now down to 312 lbs but my body hurts so much that it makes me cry and alway feel warn out. about 2 and a half years ago i had a historectomy done and my dr refred mr to a surgeon that told me if something wasn't done soon about my weight i had 10 years or less to live and that scared the hell out of me that was when he refered me to dr hagen and looked into gastric bypass and i was willing to do anything. after seeing my mother having both legs amputated from diebetes so i desided this is what i have to do ment do to see the dr at the minamal imvasive surgical group on july 17th for consultation then went to humber hospital to talk to the socal worker and dietion and got more info then on dec 17 went back to see dr sherkin for a pulmonary test and a heart scan then back to dr hagen office were i got my package and got put on the waiting list. my next appointment is on april 30 for a pre op and go get my opti fast and back on may 19th for the dietition teaching class then go back on the 27th of may for my surgery whooo hooo. i need to do this for me and my family so i can be around to see my kids get maried and be a healthier person and start loving myself and learn not to hate myself.

MsJacquiiC · 09-24-2009, 05:23 PM

Wow Girl - you have been through quite a lot leading up to your WLS. We each have stories - I thank you for sharing yours. For a lot of us - when we don't have anything else to comfort us - food is there. Food becomes such a friend that we start to obsess about it and ultimately end up at 438 pounds like I did ARG - I'm so thankful for having had the opportunity to get the gastric bypass. I didn't necessarily hate myself, but I think I perhaps hated life and hated my own life in particular. So - in order to fill the void, I satiated myself with lots and lots and lots of food. Anyway... I'm happy now that food has not such a stronghold over me as it did...

I'm rambling ARG...

Anyway - thanks for sharing your story - I can totally relate to it - even the sexual abuse ((which I won't discuss here, now anyway...)) -- But yeah - I can relate to using food in ways that it shouldn't ever be used. Well - I think "use" is not the correct terminology, but rather I "abuse" food, carbs in particular = nothing quite like an extra large Papa Johns pan crust with all the fixings...

It seems now that I do not even have the urge. I think for a lot of us - gastric bypass has been a godsend.

Jacquii.

PLUSMAMMA · 09-27-2009, 03:50 AM

i to am also a rape victim and i feel for u the sad thing is when i was raped i was still big. i wish u the best of luck mentally and psychically. and remember wls is not just physical but mental too. so good luck and stay blessed

MsJacquiiC · 09-29-2009, 12:05 AM

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Originally Posted by PLUSMAMMA

ii wish u the best of luck mentally and psychically. and remember wls is not just physical but mental too.

Oh yeah - definitely a mental journey - I would dare say mostly a mental journey, as in the process of striving for success, we must teach our mental to adapt to a totally different way of relating to food. Creating new, good eating habits and sticking to them is one of the most important things that will dictate whether our surgery remains successful!

Jacquii.